Your Heart

I’m sorry if this is too little too late.

I am sorry if I have taken you for granted. 

Not saying what was needed.Not done what was necessary.

I am sorry if my self-delusion caused you harm, caused you pain, caused you heartbreak.

It’s not an excuse, but I need to explain!

It seems I lost my way before I even knew I had the choice in the direction I could travel. I was raised into, brought into the concept of personal success above all else. In essence, I grew from a child that knew no better into a self-entered man, an ugly reflection of what was applauded, far from what I was born for.

I have no actual excuses, other than what you have heard many, many times before. I made the decisions; I must take the blame for my actions, be responsible for the outcomes. But I hope I am not too late.

The simple fact is that by placing myself first, indulging in my needs like they were God-given rights, like a decreed handed down from a greater power, I consciously ignored your needs as if they were less critical.As if my very life didn’t depend on your health.

I could have changed my way, yet I didn’t. I chose me, time and time again.

You offered me warnings, showed me the flaws of my thinking, my limited concepts I chose as a facade of meaningful existence. Yet sadly, your warnings fell on deaf ears, blinkered eyes with a narrow view focused on self and wealth.

Now I stand before you and ask for forgiveness, saying I am sorry, saying I will do better from here on. But unfortunately, I feel as if I am saying it alone; and for this, above all else, I am sorry.

In my heart, I know we deserve each other, yet as a collective, we fail to understand that life is not about rights; it’s about obligations.

What can I do for you?

How can I help?